If only I fully, completely believed that God is, and that He is the rewarder of those who diligently seek Him (Hebrews 11:6 Hebrews 11:6But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that comes to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.
American King James Version×), I wouldn't be so focused on this material world and troubled by doubts.
If only I truly loved God with all my heart and mind and soul, and loved my neighbor as myself (Matthew 22:37-40 Matthew 22:37-40  Jesus said to him, You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.
 This is the first and great commandment.
 And the second is like to it, You shall love your neighbor as yourself.
 On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.
American King James Version×), how could any relationship problems exist?
If only I more deeply loved the law of God (Psalms 119:97-98 Psalms 119:97-98  O how I love your law! it is my meditation all the day.
 You through your commandments have made me wiser than my enemies: for they are ever with me.
American King James Version×) and really understood it is for my good (Deuteronomy 10:12-13 Deuteronomy 10:12-13  And now, Israel, what does the LORD your God require of you, but to fear the LORD your God, to walk in all his ways, and to love him, and to serve the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul,  To keep the commandments of the LORD, and his statutes, which I command you this day for your good?
American King James Version×), then I would be more diligent in keeping it and reflecting God's heart and mind.
If only I fully understood the magnitude of sin, its terrible penalties and the awesome sacrifice Christ and the Father made (John 3:16 John 3:16For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
American King James Version×; Hebrews 12:2 Hebrews 12:2Looking to Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.
American King James Version×; Genesis 22:9-12 Genesis 22:9-12  And they came to the place which God had told him of; and Abraham built an altar there, and laid the wood in order, and bound Isaac his son, and laid him on the altar on the wood.  And Abraham stretched forth his hand, and took the knife to slay his son.  And the angel of the LORD called to him out of heaven, and said, Abraham, Abraham: and he said, Here am I.  And he said, Lay not your hand on the lad, neither do you any thing to him: for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son from me.
American King James Version×), how could I be tempted by sin's fleeting pleasures (Hebrews 11:25 Hebrews 11:25Choosing rather to suffer affliction with the people of God, than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a season;
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But as I strive to more deeply understand and internalize these truths through study, prayer and meditation, I can't just wish "if only..." I must continue to fight those downward thoughts and pulls through the strength Christ provides through the Holy Spirit (Philippians 4:13 Philippians 4:13I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.
American King James Version×). Then when I see Him as He is, I will be like Him (1 John 3:2-3 1 John 3:2-3  Beloved, now are we the sons of God, and it does not yet appear what we shall be: but we know that, when he shall appear, we shall be like him; for we shall see him as he is.  And every man that has this hope in him purifies himself, even as he is pure.
American King James Version×). If only that day will come soon (Revelation 22:20 Revelation 22:20He which testifies these things said, Surely I come quickly. Amen. Even so, come, Lord Jesus.
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